Ahh, yeah

Sep. 14th, 2011 07:14 pm
anonymousblueberry: (Freya is broken)
I'm having a brain day I guess. Or possibly a month. Not sure really. Spent most of the day hiding in my room away from the internet, phone turned off.
The house stuff is making me miserable, other people's attitudes to the house stuff are making me miserable, what with them telling me how I should be dealing with it and dad about it. Other people's attitudes full stop are making me miserable.
I don't want hugs, I don't want sympathy, I don't want people trying to understand me. Mostly I really just want to be left alone at the moment.

I'm currently trying to work out how the fuck some soldiers being sent fishing is more worthy of full on interviews on the news that protests over massive job cuts at a university. It's nice they're getting a break from shooting the shit out of people that they have no business being at war with, but I'm fairly sure that 80 people losing their jobs because the university has decided to outsource a fuckload of stuff is a bit more pressing and relevant to people watching that news show.

I mostly just want to be back at work. I'm bored, I'm broke, and I really need an excuse to not be social.
anonymousblueberry: (Freya is broken)
There's something about the Gladiator soundtrack that always makes me somewhat melancholy. It doesn't help that I'm not feeling great at the moment anyway. The stuff with the house is really starting to get to me, and there was some shit at the weekend that has left me with a fairly bitter taste in my mouth.

I should really eat something, but it's a choice of healthy full of seeds bread or fishfingers. And I have no idea what we're having for dinner.
anonymousblueberry: Jonas Sam and Teal'c all dressed well "dressed to impress" (SG1 are dressed to impress)
I'm in that irritating phase of listening to a mix over and over again to make sure that it all hangs together right before I post it. It's annoying. And lets not mention the fact that I've still got to cobble some kind of cover together on a laptop that doesn't like photoshop one bit.

Still going crazy living out in the sticks, and going through a serious case of the blah in relation to pretty much everything. I'm avoiding people, not doing much and generally wallowing in my own fucking misery. Which I hate, but I don't want anyone to try and pull me out of it because that gets me pissy like nobodys business.

And random people who I've never met adding me on facebook. No thanks mate, you look like a right chav and can't spell. Bad enough the people I do know who seem to be completely incapable of using non text speak on there.
anonymousblueberry: The Midnighter from The Authority grinning manically (Midnighter would like to offer you pain)
Or something. I don't know. Today has been a day of painkillers and laundry. That is just how rock and roll I am.

Apparently when I go camping I become some kind of bug magnet. At Faded Glory it was the earwigs, and at Odyssey it was the spiders in the tent (and the earwigs that had survived). It just reinforces the fact that I fucking hate tents.

I did go to Odyssey. Initially I was just going to drop Dave off (I woke up on thursday in one of the foulest moods I've been in for a while) but then I actually met people, and everyone was lovely, and so I stayed. What kit I had hastily thrown together was supplemented by several different sets of borrowed armour and weapons, and I had an amazing time.
It did however lead to some truly horrific sunburn. I've reached the point where my arms, legs and face don't really burn anymore, they have enough sun exposure that I'm normally fine. However, the tunic I'd made had a bit of a weird (read: fucked) neckline, and I had to wear it low at the back to avoid flashing everyone, which means that most of my upper back is now bright red. Including parts of the lizards. But not the nice cross where the straps for one of the sets of armour sat. Needless to say I've been piling on the aftersun and not leaning back against things.

Anyway, thankfully my body decided to hold together and hold off on various hilarities until the weekend was over, but today I have suffered. I've also done two loads of clothes washing, washed both my big blankets (which each had to go in separately) and my sleeping bag (which is still wet, and currently dripping over the kitchen floor).
Tomorrow I need to hope that the sleeping bag is dry, finish arguing with the tent (dad and I put it up in the garden to remove the bugs/their remains) and then take stuff to the storage locker (although that might have to wait until wednesday, as I need a hand taking the tent down). I also need to sort out some money things, tidy my room up a bit and maybe finish my book (Kay bought me a cool lizardy bookmark that's all 3D and lizardy, because I like lizards and I like books (I did point out that at least it's a relatively cheap and harmless addiction)).
Oh yeah, and write an adventure for this weekend. Oops.

But for now, sleep. On my front so as to not aggravate this sunburn any more.
anonymousblueberry: Icon of the Carrier on a blue backgorund (Default)
I'm fairly busy at the moment. Lots of LARP, lots of books, so I've not been online much. Quite a bit of sleeping going on as well.

Dave has returned from Germany, which is pretty awesome.

Faded Glory was fun, apparently this weekend is Odyssey, although I'm still umming and wibbling (it's a fair bit of money, and I don't really have any kit, and I don't know anyone, and there's lots of people) so, yeah.

Umm, I have a tumblr which is so far a picture of the sky. I've had it for ages, but I've only really used it to follow random picture blogs and stuff.

Still living with dad, looks like I'm here until October at least, which sucks. I want my space again, and getting to work from here is going to be an arse.
anonymousblueberry: (Freya is broken)
but that's going to come later, because my brain is ridiculous (and not always in the good way)

Contains vague spoilers for a minor character in The Bonehunters, and me waffling about alcoholism and why I find it really hard to read )

I have no idea where that came from, or why. This is one of those posts that I'm sure would have made the gobshites I used to live have a screaming fit and tell me that it's not all about me. I know it's not all about me, but these things still hurt sometimes, and still make me feel fucking weird.

Book post shortly. I'm fine, book did not break me (at least not with this character) but I am still going slowly insane from being stuck in the sticks on my own.
anonymousblueberry: John Sheppard leaning over with an arrow pointing to his arse captioned "female gaze" (Subject to the female gaze)
There is a part of my brain that is not rebelling against the idea of living in the middle of nowhere, on my own, with shit all in the way of mobile signal. Dad and Kay have gone camping, so I'm in the house on my own.
I went and hid at the cinema today and finally saw X-Men: First Class. It was ok. All about the pretty I think.

I had a nice birthday, the dress turned up in time and looked very nice.

Ummmm. I have a busy few weekends coming up. Playing at Pathfinder this weekend, then it's a tavern night malarky, then it's FG which I'm playing, and then Dave is trying to convince me to go to Odyssey (which I can never spell). He's mostly convinced me, I just have to make sure that other commitments can be dealt with.
And I have two weeks during which he's in Germany, starting on saturday.

I'm fairly sure I had something to say, but I can't remember what the fuck it was.

Eh.
anonymousblueberry: John Sheppard leaning over with an arrow pointing to his arse captioned "female gaze" (Subject to the female gaze)
So a couple of days ago, I bought a dress, because I thought that I might have need for such a thing. It was a pretty dress, although dubious on its sizing, because I resent being told that I'm an extra large when I waver between a 14 and 16. But whatever.
I paid extra for it to turn up on time, and thankfully, it did. It showed up yesterday (irritatingly, while I was at the cinema, and we shall be thankful that this is a nice quiet village and that the front door is actually at the back of the house, because the package was left on the doorstep).
Anyway, I get home and open the package, and lo and behold, completely the wrong thing. Where I had ordered a black and red halterneck, this was a red and white strappy/strapless/halterneck thing, and while a nice dress, was the wrong colour for me, and not what I ordered. Cue a panic. Cue me trying to get hold of the people I bought it from, to no avail until lunchtime today.

So to cut a long story short, I have ended up buying the same dress twice (although one of those payments will be refunded) and it still may not turn up on time.

And this, kids, is why it pays to plan ahead.

And if it doesn't fit (I have concerns about my boobs and the chest of the dress) I will have something to slim down a bit into (I could do with toning up, not losing weight, just turning the podge into muscle) which will be an incentive.

So wrong dress is now winging its way home, new dress is in the process of being dispatched, and I am crossing every digit possible that it turns up.

In better news, I finally got round to seeing Green Lantern yesterday, and ok, it wasn't the best film in the whole world, but I still spent most of it making heart eyes at it, and it's probably a good thing I didn't go with Dave, as I was a very squee-y fangirl throughout.
I was also one third of the audience, the other two thirds of which I think may have been hobos sleeping. I'm not sure.
I still hate Hal Jordan though.
anonymousblueberry: Brendan from Thought Crimes holding an icepack to his head (Icepacks are Brendan's must have item)
And for the second day in a row, I was up at 7:30. I really have no idea why. It continues to be quiet out here in the arse end of nowhere. Dad and Kay are both at work, the neighbours are pootling about and the birds are singing. But at least they're not in the kitchen today.
Yesterday, I had the back door open, and while I was sitting in the lounge reading, I looked up and there was a blackbird sitting in the middle of the kitchen floor looking confused. It then proceeded to make life really difficult by spamming itself against the window that I was trying to open to let it out. Eventually, I won, and the blackbird tootled out and started making lots of noise and hopping round like nothing was wrong and it had always intended to do that.
And then I shut the door. Nature is awesome, just not in my house.

And the wasp nest is dead. Had that killed on friday, which took all of about 20 minutes from poison to death. I feel vaguely bad about it, but I hate wasps, they were keeping me up all night, and I'm fairly sure that the universe had its revenge on saturday when I did my back in putting a bloody messenger bag on the floor.

One minute I was fine, moving the kit for LARP from car to Dave's living room, then I put the bag with the manual down and ping, back be gone. I spent saturday afternoon in agony. I barely slept (to the extent I woke Dave up crying at about 3am, but refused to go to A&E because I'm an idiot) and then had to delay LARP to go to A&E and be shot full of the good drugs. LARP was run tabletop, I can't remember half of it, and I had to stay in MK an extra day as Dave did the disapproving glare dance of "you can't drive with that stuff still in your system" (I know I shouldn't have, but I wanted to be home, with my stuff). Needless to say I was fine on monday, just still a bit loopy from the drugs, which I haven't taken anymore of. There's a reason I stay well away from doctors; they're a bit too keen on bringing out the heavy stuff (they gave me cocodamol, diazepam and diclofenic) which does shitty things to my brain. Grrr.
I'm still a bit stiff, and driving for long periods isn't all that comfortable, but I'll survive. (touch wood, fingers crossed).

Today my hayfever is playing up, and I can't work out what's triggering it. Something in the garden I suspect, but what exactly, I have no idea.
And I'm stuck in the house waiting for a parcel. I ordered a new dress the other day, and it should be here in the next couple of days.

I got savaged by a small child on tuesday, which was traumatic (I don't really like children all that much, but they always seem to like me). She was a sweet enough kid, and if I hadn't still been in pain, I'm sure it would have been fine, but it was just a bit too much.

And that's about it. I was going to post some photos of how pretty it is here, but I can't find the cable for my camera.
anonymousblueberry: Apollo from the Authority bathed in sunlight (Here comes the sun)
I am now moved into the father's place. It's weird. Right now I'm sitting in their living room; him and Kay are both at work, and there's the odd car going past, but most of what I can hear is the multitude of birds cheeping and singing. There are gold finches in the creepers outside the window, and swallows out the back, as well as all the stuff I'm used to at home, although fewer crows and wood pigeons. There are chicken and sheep in the field at the bottom of the garden, and over the road there are fields with more sheep and horses, and it's so bloody quiet. There's also a wasp nest in the roof above my room, which is doing my head in already (I hate wasps with a passion).

Currently I'm waiting for iTunes to finish processing all my music onto Nene. The one good thing about being here is that they have a shower, which is awesome. Home has only ever had a bath (which is one of the things that is being fixed during the work, I will have a shower).

I'm glad I can drive now though, as I really am out in the sticks here. No buses unless I walk a couple of villages over, and it is a bit of a trek to get to Northampton on foot from here, although I might try it one day, just to see.

The weekend was hectic; saturday was spent packing and then over to dave's for his birthday, and then sunday was LARPing. I have been bitten to hell by the bug population, to the extent that my forehead is just a mess of bites (totally normal, they seem to go for my forehead as it's usually one of the few bits uncovered) and I have one on my thigh that had swollen to a good three inches round (again, while it's never happened to me, mum was prone to reactions like that, and she was also always being bitten by things).

I'm watching the hoohah over some bloke buying up fan archives to make a profit and frowning. Fandom is amazingly closed ranks, and while yes, I can see that to an outsider, it may look like a cash opportunity, surely the people on the fannish side would have the sense to understand that fandom does not take kindly to that sort of thing?

Hmm, I've been up two hours already. If this trend continues (and it probably will, if only to avoid accusations of laziness) then it's going to be a long couple of months.

We popped round to the house yesterday (I'd left my calendar on the wall, and there were a couple of boxes of food that needed to be picked up) and the builders had already had all the cabinets and stuff off the walls of the kitchen, the sink was still in, but all the plaster had been stripped back to the brickwork, and in the bathroom, one of the walls had been completely stripped, and the airing cupboard was half dismantled. I have no idea what state the outhouse was in, but with the plaster gone, it was obvious how badly the back wall needs work doing to it.

And now I think for more tea, then it will be a bit of pootling about, then off to MK for LARP plotting and Unknown Armies this evening.
anonymousblueberry: Jonas Sam and Teal'c all dressed well "dressed to impress" (SG1 are dressed to impress)
And god is it boring. This morning I've filled 2 boxes and packed my sewing machine away. I have more to do, and I think dad wants me to do a tip run before I go gaming tonight. I may just shove it in the car and do it in the morning.

I just made double chocolate muffins, and they are excellent. Definitely better warm, when they're still slightly gooey in the middle, and the white chocolate lumps are still melty. Omnom.

I really wish that we would have a thunder storm. The pressure and humidity are building and building, and then it'll drizzle a bit, but not actually storm, and it's doing my head in (literally, I spent most of yesterday with a killer headache that painkillers were not touching), and while I'm enjoying the heat, everyone else I know is complaining bitterly. I know an awful lot of nocturnal, sun hating people.

I found a bunch of old photos of mum earlier, from before she got married, and the day of the wedding. She was really quite a stunning looking woman (and the photos with my dad in, with an uber-bushy beard are hilarious).

And now I should be back to the packing. If I've not made visible headway, there will be trouble.
anonymousblueberry: Jonas Sam and Teal'c all dressed well "dressed to impress" (SG1 are dressed to impress)
Dad came and took the first lot of boxes away yesterday. 1 box of DVDs, 2 of kitchen stuff, 1 of cookery books, 1 of his and 5 of my books. I didn't realise I had quite that many books (I kept finding more as I was packing) and the boxes probably should have been packed a little more sparsely, as they were fucking heavy. The bookshelves have also gone to the locker.
I'm now surrounded by piles of books and DVDs that I'm trying to get rid of.
So far one whole thing has sold on eBay.

I watched the first episode of Game of Thrones yesterday. It was, something. I'm not sure if I really like it or not yet. I didn't realise who Jon was until I looked him up afterwards, I thought he was just some bod. Theon does not look like Theon in my head.
I am hugely unimpressed with Lena Heady, which is shocking, as she's one of my favourite actresses, she also looks terrible blonde. On the flip side, the girl they've got playing Dany is pretty good, and the girl playing Sansa is almost exactly as I pictured her.

I woke up this morning and thought to myself, "hmmm, what day is it today?... it's plastic". I don't think I'm really going to rise above that all that much.

I baked yesterday, mostly out of boredom, and also because I'm trying to empty the cupboards. I made Banana and nectarine muffins (which have a bit too much almond essence in them, and not enough nectarine flavour), and mocha brownies (which are incredibly rich, have walnuts rather than pecan because nowhere had pecans, and go excellently with strawberry icecream). Today I may make double chocolate muffins (I have a lot of cooking chocolate that needs using).

I need to get on with listing all of these bloody books up on Green Metropolis (and the list for friends and what not), start shifting all my writing from Pharangese to Nene and pack LARP kit for the weekend. And go in to town and run some errands, sort my eyebrows out and at some point, pick the car up from dad (I have a nasty feeling this will involve a ride to his place on the motorbike, do not want). And maybe do more packing.

This had all better be bloody worth it.

Stupid

Jun. 22nd, 2011 03:39 pm
anonymousblueberry: Dax from Trials and Tribblations "women wore less" (Dax thinks women wore less in the old da)
I'm cold, hungry and there is a bee in the water tank of my toilet. I think it's a bee. It could be a big wasp. I'm slightly scared to go into the bathroom. I think I may be mocked for this fear.
anonymousblueberry: (Freya is broken)
So I am alive. This is an awesome thing. Sort of. I've busted my right shoulder, which is irritating (and by busted, I mean pulled a muscle or something, and it just aches all the time) especially because it's worse when I sleep in the same bed as Dave.

I saw Thor, and deemed it to be good. Possibly I wasn't supposed to find Loki more attractive than Thor, but the internet reliably informs me that I am not on my own in that.
I've yet to see X-men (Dave went to see it without me :() or Green Lantern. The reviews for Green Lantern scare me, because I love Green Lantern (although I don't like Hal, Guy Gardner is my lantern (apart from when Kyle is)) and I don't want it to be bad.

I see to have fallen back into comics. Sort of. I've finally finished Civil War, I'm slogging through Secret Invasion and Blackest Night at the moment, and I've just read all of The Losers.

The big news at the moment with me though is the fact that I'm currently packing up the ENTIRE house into a storage locker so I can have a new bathroom and kitchen fitted, and new electrics wired in. It's awful. I have too much stuff, not enough boxes (and dad is charging me for every extra box I need for my books) and not enough time. I've got until July 1st to get it all done, but I have LARP and other things that are getting in the way, plus the fact that I am a professional procrastinator.
And because I'm having to get rid of stuff, I'm having to sort through everything rather than just shove it in boxes. I'm culling books and DVDs here, and it hurts.

So right now, I should probably go and find some tea (I got to the bus stop just as the X4 turned up so haven't had breakfast yet) and then get on with this shit. More books, more boxes, more misery. And dad is coming over this evening to help prune down all his books and all the plates and shit that we have lying around.

I suppose the up side is that I'm not doing all of this while I'm also at work. Term ended a while back, and now I'm mooching around with not much else to do.
anonymousblueberry: John Sheppard leaning over with an arrow pointing to his arse captioned "female gaze" (Subject to the female gaze)
Today I have done 2 loads of washing, 2 loads of washing up, been into town to try and sort my phone out (I have to find proof of purchase and take it to the Nokia repair place), spent an hour trying to find a notebook with plain pages, that wasn't a sketchbook, eaten lunch, and only then did I start trying to put the adventure for the weekend into some kind of order. Only to be disturbed by screaming children, so I had to decamp to a different cafe.

The blank paged notebook was important though; I hate drawing maps on lined paper, and I needed to work out some areas for this stupid thing. I ended up going to Waterstones, and buying one of their overpriced fancy looking notebooks, which was £3, and not spiral bound. WHSmiths had nothing (unless I wan't a sketchbook, which I didn't because I wasn't after good quality paper) and Colemans is rubbish. But I think it's done now. It just needs typing and the few bits of statting need finishing up.

I'm thinking I might go have a bath, just for something to do. I've got a goldfish like attention span today, and I'm really not getting much done, and my multitude of bug bites need soaking, again.

*sigh*

Jun. 2nd, 2011 09:57 am
anonymousblueberry: (Freya is broken)
Having mouse issues today. Or at least I'm having cursor issues with Nene. I suspect lack of tea causing brain worms, but we shall see. I've just managed to send half an email that I hadn't finished writing and god knows what else.

Valiantly trying to write plot for the weekend and mostly failing. LARP is not my happy place right now (especially not when it comes to writing or running)

I'm thinking once this load of washing is done, I'm venturing into town. I need to go to the Virgin store to replace the sacrificial virgins to see if they'll replace my mobile, which is a bit knackered, and then I shall find a cafe and try and get this plot plotted.

And that's about it. I should probably do the pile of washing up, which is starting to look a bit grim (it's from monday, since I was out all tuesday and yesterday) and is sort of starting to offend me.

Blah

May. 18th, 2011 07:02 pm
anonymousblueberry: John Sheppard leaning over with an arrow pointing to his arse captioned "female gaze" (Subject to the female gaze)
Running, that thing that I do that makes all my old injuries (apart from the obvious one) remind me that they exist. Add that to really bad cramps and right now I am not a happy Beth. Off to find painkiller and sew.

Rar!

May. 11th, 2011 03:01 pm
anonymousblueberry: Jonas Sam and Teal'c all dressed well "dressed to impress" (SG1 are dressed to impress)
So monday evening my phone broke for no apparent reason. Or rather, the line broke. It is now thankfully fixed, but ugh, the suckage of having to stay in all day for a tech window between 12 and 4. Grr.

Also, at LARP last weekend I apparently was tasty tasty bug chow (this is a common thing) and one side of my face, and my hip are covered in bug bites. I also have one on the back of my neck/shoulders, right where I can't quite reach it.
And my sun burn is peeling.

Woo, and yay.

Need to finish working out what I'm doing in the Unknown Armies game, as I have many fun and hilarious possibilities, but I'm not sure which to go for.

Grr...

Apr. 8th, 2011 01:18 pm
anonymousblueberry: Icon of the Carrier on a blue backgorund (Default)
I used to be allergic to plaster adhesive, specifically that used on fabric plasters. Over the years, I figured I'd grown out of it, and I mostly avoided fabric plasters.
Then earlier this week I got desperate, as I was breaking in new shoes, and the back of my foot was raw, so I shoved a plaster on it. Which came off over the course of the day, and then I replaced it, all was fine. I left it off over night, and replaced the plaster with another, definitely not fabric, allegedly non-allergenic plaster.
What's happened? The skin is bright red and splotchy, and it itches like a mother fucker. Which means that wearing shoes right now is really not pleasant.

Grumpy Beth is grumpy.
anonymousblueberry: Jonas Sam and Teal'c all dressed well "dressed to impress" (SG1 are dressed to impress)
Term ends tomorrow. I have no idea what I'm going to do. This is the problem with term time work. *sigh*

My peonies are springing up in the garden. As is everything else. Seriously, I went out there this morning and I was savaged by a jaguar... actually it was a neighbouring cat that decided it had had enough fuss thank you very much. But the garden is just a tad over grown.

The bus driver insisted on checking my id card this afternoon. I realise I look like a student, I realise I look all of 20 at best, but really. That's perfectly old enough to work there, and why would anyone want to fake a staff id card? It doesn't do anything special.
And then he shouted at people for not giving up their seats for old people. (This is a bug bear of mine. If old person looks like they're having problems, I will give up my seat (providing my feet are working properly) but otherwise, they can damn well stand like the rest of us, and I object to the assumption that just because a person looks young and healthy that they are capable of standing on a bus, especially given the way the drivers round that route drive.)

My shower continues to be broken, despite dad swearing that he'd fixed it. I also managed to drive him to MK and not die in the process. I'm still not allowed the car on my own, but it's a start.

I'm watching Justified at the moment, and I am enjoying it muchly. And the music. I'm also sort of watching my way through Battlestar Galactica, but that's not going too well, as I hate most of the characters, and the first season just makes me want to stab them all in the face and save an awful lot of time.

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